Tomorrow will be one of the most nerve-wrecking days of my life. I can tell. I will never be this nervous about something, ever.
Tomorrow, at about 11, my hour of doom, I will have to perform a speech from the play Romeo and Juliet. In Front Of My Class. I know, to some, the idea of performing in front of a crowd is nothing to get all scared about. But not to me, especially when we're expected to perform it full on dramatically with all the sighs and hand-on-the-forehead moves. And the worse part- we have to wear costumes!
All those who performed on Monday and Tuesday were so nervous. Most of them were shaking. My friend, Jess turned red when she performed. I laughed at her. But she offered me some sour cream and onion chips today, so I guess she's not mad. Jess was very good at her speech though. My other friend, Rachel who performed the same speech as mine did hers really really well.
The Pressure!!!
I chose probably one of the corniest speeches you can find in the whole script. I don't know why, but I chose it anyway. So, poor me. I have to get up there tomorrow, wearing a white dress, acting all head over heels and saying these lines:
O Romeo Romeo, wherefore art thou Romeo?
Deny thy father, and refuse thy name
Or if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love
And I'll no longer be a Capulet.
'Tis but thy name that is my enemy
Thou art thyself, though not a Montague
What's Montague?
It is nor hand, nor foot, nor arm, nor face
nor any other part belonging to a man
O, be some other other name
What's in a name?
That which we call a rose
By any other name would smell as sweet
So Romeo would, were he not Romeo call'd
Retain that dear perfection
which he owes without that title. Romeo, doff thy name
And for thy name, which is no part of thee
Take all myself
And that's not all. After the speech, I have to give another 600-word speech, my rationale.
I know, I am terribly excited too!
I have to explain in my rationale why I chose to wear what I wore and how I attempted to convey the love theme etc etc..
I can't ruin the whole thing tomorrow. I worked way too hard to just ruin it. Or at least I thought I worked hard. So there was the process of learning my lines. Then, writing my rationale, which drove me insane by the way. I had to then find a white dress, pretty shoes, stress out, memorise my rationale, write dot points on a palm card and stress out some more. So yeah, I worked hard all right.
I'm nervous but I'll get over it. Soon. It brings me joy to know that I still have 2 more years of these kinds of assignments.
God, help me!